Why cant ppl jus ustd my situation??

Seems soo outcasted in offic...
just becos i don eat bfast with them cos due to my gastric, i don eat bfast early...
or cos i don order lunch wen i brought my home-prepared lunch??
or cos i don talk as much and as loud as the rest?

sigh~ workload at office if overloading.. im getting sick of it
i wanna chg job!!!

tdy they keep grumbling abt the payday..
i already did my best le.. i even come back work on sat just to finish it up, work at home cos tat day i hvn finish but my colleague chasing me knock off.. sigh~
I submitted my part, its wat i suppose to do, last monday.. the rest is not my fault... if they cant get pay by tml ma.. im affected too ma... i earn much lesser than they all, why must they complaint?? so sick of hearing.. just now i almost fare it out yet im timid, easy bully, wanna sob but act strong..

sigh~ watever! I'm not gg talk too much... gg resign soon and get out of this sickening place!! I just a ball to let them shout, scold and push me around..

I just wanna be happy, is that really very hard? classmates ignoring me cos im too quiet, wedding is really stressing me out, on and off quarrel with bf, work sooo stress, xmas preparation for coy, my wedding preparation, coy dinner preparation, and family problems...

Told my colleague must lock office doors, maybe to her, her things not impt, but mine ar. Ok, my fault that i left my keys in office.. if she hv lock her doors, i won be soo worry, but the problem is she didnt.. and the thing is there are alot gifts in our room... if those tings are missing, i cant afford to pay them lor.. i don earn as much as they did.. when will they spare a thought for me.. im nt rich, im not born in a silver spoon, i hv to give parents $ still, my hm internet, my insurances, my hp bills and my wedding expenses..

Sorry, im really very upset, pissed and sad tdy... i oni can grumble here. if you are reading and i offended you, sorry.. i did not mention your name... my friends won noe who im talking about.. don worry.. i jus wanna grumble grumble it out.. and hope u keep it to urself.. nt even to tell ur lunch khakis OK.. promise.. thankyou!!

sigh~

Happy happy happy, that all i wan for my 2009 resolutions! I just wanna be happy always!