Why cant ppl jus ustd my situation??

Seems soo outcasted in offic...
just becos i don eat bfast with them cos due to my gastric, i don eat bfast early...
or cos i don order lunch wen i brought my home-prepared lunch??
or cos i don talk as much and as loud as the rest?

sigh~ workload at office if overloading.. im getting sick of it
i wanna chg job!!!

tdy they keep grumbling abt the payday..
i already did my best le.. i even come back work on sat just to finish it up, work at home cos tat day i hvn finish but my colleague chasing me knock off.. sigh~
I submitted my part, its wat i suppose to do, last monday.. the rest is not my fault... if they cant get pay by tml ma.. im affected too ma... i earn much lesser than they all, why must they complaint?? so sick of hearing.. just now i almost fare it out yet im timid, easy bully, wanna sob but act strong..

sigh~ watever! I'm not gg talk too much... gg resign soon and get out of this sickening place!! I just a ball to let them shout, scold and push me around..

I just wanna be happy, is that really very hard? classmates ignoring me cos im too quiet, wedding is really stressing me out, on and off quarrel with bf, work sooo stress, xmas preparation for coy, my wedding preparation, coy dinner preparation, and family problems...

Told my colleague must lock office doors, maybe to her, her things not impt, but mine ar. Ok, my fault that i left my keys in office.. if she hv lock her doors, i won be soo worry, but the problem is she didnt.. and the thing is there are alot gifts in our room... if those tings are missing, i cant afford to pay them lor.. i don earn as much as they did.. when will they spare a thought for me.. im nt rich, im not born in a silver spoon, i hv to give parents $ still, my hm internet, my insurances, my hp bills and my wedding expenses..

Sorry, im really very upset, pissed and sad tdy... i oni can grumble here. if you are reading and i offended you, sorry.. i did not mention your name... my friends won noe who im talking about.. don worry.. i jus wanna grumble grumble it out.. and hope u keep it to urself.. nt even to tell ur lunch khakis OK.. promise.. thankyou!!

sigh~

Happy happy happy, that all i wan for my 2009 resolutions! I just wanna be happy always!

Company Xmas Party

Had Xmas party at coy office on the 23rd Dec (tues). A successful one. Planned by Eileen (finance), helper includes all office ladies mainly me, meilian, jasline & yanni.

Xmas party Invitation Card, done by me :) hee

Our buffet food, by breeks

Eileen & me, with the door gift-candy cane.. ribbon & msg done by me :( so sad..no1 wanna help me..

Our beloved GM.. Alan Tay.. he he very very cute but when he fierce, he is very very fierce

My fav bro - Muthu, Me, Eileen & Ang

Pretty girls in the office (Eileen, Me, Maggie, Meilian) with Ang & Nelson's youngest son.. hee

Meilian, Eileen, Nelson (our director), Me, James & Ng HH

Jasline, Me, Muthu, Eileen, ML, Sally, Ee San

Addie, safety coor frm site

Our cute Alan, acting the Reindeer out.. CUTE!

Ang trying to act Elephant word out

Game time

Xmas gift xchg time..

Family Photos

Funny one

Rocher, nice! hee

Internally xmas prez

Just for us...

Me, ML, Yanni, Eileen, Jasline

Gift from Muthu

Gift from me to Jasline

Gift from me to Eileen

Gift from me to Yanni

Gift from me to ML

Other Updates

Kinda long nebe update due to berry bery very very super busy @ work, school, xmas, coy partys, coy annual dinner nxt mth and so on so on..

Will post various post to updates... here are the random updates, letting the photos do the talking.. hee *lazy*

Went TradeHub21 to had sakae Sushi with dear..

Went JP shopping for xmas prez with my colleagues (Meilian, Eileen - both finance depts & ME), in maxi cabbie when way back office

Wedding gifts from my cousin.. nice! I love it alot!!

Dead Chicken I bought for myself... cute! haa

Kneading the 汤圆 with various shapes.. roti prata (flat shape), star, triangles, moon, donuts, squares, diamond, swiss roll, mini balls, rectangle, bamboos, etc etc..

My creations! whahaha nice!

our cute muthu helping me out to drill hold for key press

My bro graduation family photos

Muthu cycle out to help us tabao lunch.. thank you Muthu!!

depress again

alot things happen between me and my classmates which are affecting me alot cos i need to do project with them..still and 4 more months to go b4 i have total no contacts with them.

To those who know me well, should roughly know what happen to me and them.. to those who dono, i will roughly say it out. reasons i said it here cos im really really very sad and wanna someone to share my sorrows and tears with me.

b4 i chg my new job, i talk to C alot.. we discuss about her wedding, help her out in her wedding. we are kinda close. but when i changed my job, things changed. i tends to get tired easily due to new job, more stress at work. hence when i go school, i don tends to talk as much as b4. i will like to endure my lesson till end then go home. less talks between me and C.

One day, C was talking to me in class when lecturer is talking. i told her to keep quiet and concentrate. Then one of the lesson, C keep telling me she wanna quit. it really turns me off (in terms of listening) cos im already very tired and trying hard to concentrate yet she keep grumbling away say wanna quit. i wanna quit tooo but im trying hard cos this cos is subsidised, hence if i quit, i need to compensate.

jus becos i said the word "turned it off" she felt that she talking to me turns me off, and sitting beside me without talking to me is like an idiot. hence she shifted seats. then, my classmates asking me what happen. i was so sad but i said i dono.. cos i don wish to go around telling.

Things get worst cos C go home with A, then C go ard tell the rest of the classmates. From then, the rest of my group mates (sitted 2gether) stop talking to me. Their behaviour are strange. they will communicate via paper, not letting me see.

This sem, we have 2 projects to be done in group. 1st projects, when we meet up, i give suggestions, all ignore me.. so sad. i keep quiet then. i did my contributions secretly with N, who is very neutral towards this. N told me that C told him about wat happen between me & C too.

Last friday, regarding the apple story, they don wanna share their apples with me, was pointing behind my back say don wan give me.. rather give SS than to me. Was soo hurt. Its not that I want their apple, but why must they do that to me. After class, i walk home with C who was talking to me. I causally talked about last Acct class was delay.. i din noe the class end late cos C talked too much in class, till i heard A telling S & L. C was telling me A like to gossip around. and telling all bads things about A.

Today, in class.. C went to tell A that she heard from someone that A, S, L blame C cos class end late. I was soo angry that why did she need to do this to me. She know im not in gd terms with A, S, L cos of her.. i really very sad that there's this kinda of person on earth, go around back stabbing. I was so hurt, so sad that to think i still treat her as gd friends.

I wrote " i feel outcasted in class" in my facebook. Today, S was saying OUTCAST word very sensitive. I know they are referring to me. Guess what, C is in my facebook!

Gosh~!! Im really very hurt and sad.. sobsob.. why this is happening to me...

someone please guide me through... I hate them... I hate myself... I hate myself being soo quiet, soft-spoken. Whats wrong with that??? sobsob...


What should I do? I still have a grp proj to submit in Jan 2gether with them...

Busy busy busy

From today onwards, I gottan be real real busy!!

Reasons:
1. Next week is the closing, and so happen that the finance closing is on the 17th aka my staff's timesheet, overtime claims, etc gottan be ready by 16th where their timesheet will only end on the 15th (meaning 16th of Nov to 15th Dec).. Gosh~ Guess gottan OT on next tuesday *Sweat*

2. Payroll to be done by 17th Dec, including AWS, Cheques to be issued, etc etc etc.. *head damn big*

3. Company xmas party on the 23rd Dec (Following tuesday). Buffet haven book, xmas prez haven buy for staff attending (very very last min decision made).. meaning i gottan go prepare the presents (alone or with help of some colleagues who are not affected by the year end closing which normally is the finance dept staff), wrap them, label them all by 22nd DEC!!

4. Parent company ask me to do a poster for their D&D (just becos we invited them to our xmas party with the self-design mailer by me...) Im soooo busy already still ask me.. yet i cant reject cos they are my parent coy & the lady who ask me do is the one who offer this job to me. "L-L"

5. Monday is my accounting class test.. I HAVENT START!! gottan stress over the weekend

6. Jan is my ROM.. STRESS... alot tings to worry... not to be mention here.

7. Jan b4 CNY is our company D&D!! I'm one of the committee member, only get to know it TODAY!! Went to source for the venue today afternoon with 2 other colleagues.. wore heels today.. cos suppose after class going drinking, therefore wore pretty.. (but last min kanna fly kite.. lolx) Very tiring to travel to chk the venues, ask qns, take photos using my camera.. but we end "work" earlier.. hee But more tiring than working

BUT... honestly, i enjoy (a-bit la..hehe) doing those events.. maybe i shld b event planner, although it's stress, but i felt its more meaningful than a HR job.. really... to me bah.. hee *might switch job again.. lolx but now economy not very gd ley... any1 can intro job to me or not?? hee*

TOday end early, took bus to harbourfront and had dinner alone @ KFC cos i don feel like going class so early.. but when i finish my dinner, its only like 6pm.. cos im real tired, hence thinking go school and take a rest / nap..

Reached school, talk to Mr "Chim" (A-student in class) b4 going in classroom..

Something happen which make me feel disgusted!

As i'm kinda tired, i took a nap, face away from my group mates (whom are the aunties.. and like to gossip and talk alot... namely auntie A, S & L)

b4 i take a nap..

[A] asked me why i reach so early. not wanna tell her, i said i was outstationed, but she still asking go where etc etc.. *fan ren* Me gd person, & easily xin-ruan, hence roughly tell her but not in details..

[S] - i dislike most cos can tell she dislike me ever since the incident between me & cyn.. but i still gt talk to cyn, but she don talk to me.. she likes to write down on paper and show to [A] or [L] but woman 6th sense tells me its sth related to me.. at times i feel hurting cos only 4 of us there, she showed to all except ME. soo obvious right? I know i shouldnt bother them but, those who noe me, i treat friend more importantly.

[L] the neutral one but cos influence by [S] & [A], she seldom talk to me too.. + im not a christian but [S] is.

So today in class, i saw an apple opp the table and causally ask how come got apple there. They didnt ans me.. so i oso don bother. When I'm taking a rest, with my eyes open, they toook apples out from their NTUC plastic bags. honestly i wasnt bother cos im not interested if they giving me the apples or not. they were like [L] one apple, [A] one apple & [S] one apple. Got another apple left. [A] signal say give me eat (i can see from the reflection on the glass panel when i resting,but they dono that my eyes is open.), but [S] signalED "don wan", give to [abc] classmates who sit in front of me.. [s] was pointing that directly. Then they was signalling away, not wanna let me heard but not knowing i was "seeing" them..

Another issue is regarding our group project which we are in the group. they are whispering the project, like cannot let me heard, but I'm part of the project lor.. I know I haven do any contribution cos we just complete the 1st assignment, yet to go into the 2nd 1. Over the weekend I helping the malay group mates, they DIDn't! they only know how to open their mouth, yet not doing action to it. Words speak LOUDER than their actions.

Sad right? Thats my classmates... (childish?? no comments)

Today after class, i left not wanna wait for them etc.. cyn and i was in same lift, we chatted and walk to MRT station 2gether. She also felt that she getting dislike [A] & [S] cos [A] was gossiping around and telling her group mates this and that.. gosh, [A] is more than 30 years old ley! I really wanna show her photos here but on 2nd thought, decided not to. Cyn asked me to move and sit with her but i cant cos got another project with them.. hope this will be the last projects...

And hope that coming account test i can score high marks to shock them off! lolx.. *jia you bin!* hee

Ok, that all.. feel much better after pouring them out to cyn & here! hee

Will post photos soon.. after my test... gottan be a busy busy month soon

My Loooong Weekend!

Loong weekend passED so fast.. ):

Now Tuesday, back to work = SIAN!! haaa

Weekend kinda busy & sian.. busy rotting away~ lolx

Oh ya, I'm not working part-time for the time being le.. cos i'm toooo tired

Work, study, wedding preparation.. 好累阿!!

:: Saturday ::

Rot at home helping my bro do his artcraft gifts as well as mine wedding preparation..

Nice?? hee

I like this.. *proud of myself!* haa

Next, wrap a box for my ROM - for the guest card & hong baos (if any)

Hole just right for the guest card I did

A holder for the guest card as well.. All are using recycle boxes found at home.. haa

Overall! hee

After which, went down to Bugis Jean Yip Hairdressing to had my hair done - Rebonding..

Took one from my colleague package.. $120 only @ Jean Yip *cheap!*
Nice? Haa.. basically nth much difference hor.. haha juz that softer & straighter & driER..

Total hrs taken 3hours! 1630pm to 1930pm -_-" Back aching man! haa

No choice 爱美嘛~

:: Sunday ::

Brought my parents to East Coast Park relax..

Doctor say dad need to exercise more, hence decided to go ECP walk walk..

Actually its ME wanna go Car Boot Flea Market 1... BUT BUT.. (see below)

Went blading with bro & daddy mummy stroll along the beach

Brother bladed 26km?? haa It's Standard Chartered Marathon that day too (:

Car Boot Flea Market @ The Playground

Taking a brake.. hee my blade

Performance @ the Car Boot Flea Market..

Wanna go stroll around the flea market, thinking can buy some clothes/things home

BUT

due to THE PLAYGROUND is new place = the floor damn smooth = blading is damn smooth = I DONO HW TO STOP!!

Hence cannot shop with my blades on.. i scare i fell down then ma lu infront of soooo many people..

Well, i almost fell down when blading back to my brother who is watching the performances. cos floor tooo smooth to control.. haa (im nt a pro-blader ma)

Went to find daddy mummy...

Who are eating @ Mac.. hee

now my turn... finally bladed 26km back too! lolx

Daddy Mummy strolling back

in front of me.. while im walking back (blade removED.. haa)

Had dinner @ hse there coffee shop... dao dan.. dono hw to write in chinese.. haa

Took pix of this plate cos the chilli.. tts hw they put sia

Dear went for the Singapore Standard Chartered Marathon this year

42km run aka full marathon

Jeck, Vincent, Steve & Dear (Guess is early morning b4 they start bah)

After they finish (hw i noe? cos Jeck & Vin wearing the finishing tee - the black adidas tee)

Caught dear walking.. haa with his classmates - Vincent

Dear's full marathon statistics.. Although nt as fast as the Kenya guy

(who got the US$35k!!) but

GOOD JOB DEAR! Hee my poor dear nw leg pain~ Resting at home.. lolx

:: Monday ::

Went to classmate house to do project with dear (cos bringing laptop along.. kinda heavy)

My fren stayed @ Tampines, a malay guy & he had cats @ home!

Told him to keep his cats in his room cos i scare..

While doing the project half way, my eyes get itchy.. hence i rub rub rub..

then i feel that my vision getting smaller *my eye already soooo small le*

Then i went washroom to wash my right eye.. back to my work area, my left eye itchy le..

follow by hand itchy, leg itchy & my back itchy -_-" (why back? .. i was thinking cos im sitting on the floor, when their sofa behind me.. aka near my neck area.. i think i laid there b4..)

& was sneezing all the way.. nose sensitive :S

Din stay there long cos very 辛苦..

Went home took a pix of myself..

Went to bathe throughly~ b4 i can sleep..

CONCLUSION:: I'm Allegic to CATS!!